ThiS guY........

soo there's this guy.. and he totally has my heart.
after many failed relationships, i had totally given up on love. after my previous situation in finding out my ex liked boys, i was extremely closed off to even getting involved with anyone my freshman year in college.
you always hear people say don't rush getting into a relationship..just wait...it'll happen...but my theory is: you can't put a time on love...when its there and its happening you have to go with the flow...
so when i met my now boyfriend...i really wasn't sure if i was ready to committ. BUT that soon changed when i began to open my eyes and realize that this guy was amazing. although we have different views on how we met, the day that we locked eyes, my life was changed forever....
i've never experienced this feeling.. waking up every morning and knowing that there's someone out there who cares about you besides the people that are supposed to (i.e your parents, siblings, and other family members)..
for the first time in my life, i'm experiencing, what i like to call, "mutual love." when there's no question how much in love THE BOTH of you are with each other..
and being with this guy has helped me to realize that love isnt always flowers, cards and candy..but just laying in the bed all day with him, holding each other, laying on his chest at night, watching him sleep, listening to him talk, watching the way he walks, and so on is just as romantic in itself. i love him. he completes me...
when im feeling at my worse or when 'my monthly friend' is in town, he understands what im going through and is willing to do/give me anything i need.
i love this guy. i honestly don't know what life before was like without him and i cant imagine a life after him...
he's so incredible.my hero.my everything.my boo.my king. the reason why i smile.my #3 1/2 protector (after God, my father, and brother of course) but all i know is i love this guy.....
thanks baby for making feel like a queen...
I LOVE YOU.

...disrespectful....

ugh... are females always attracted to what they can't have..or is it just me?? i dont understand why they cant just leave the ones that are IN A RELATIONSHIP alone...? i mean think about it...if u had a boyfriend and had to deal with females making inappropriate remarks/doing things just to be funny...how would that make u feel?? unhappy? yeah i know...its how i feel right now...it makes me feel crunchy/perhaps like an idiot for the simple fact that the "other chicks" completely surpass me and that fact that i am in a relationship with this guy, and swarm straight to him.STOP! back up.. he belongs to me.. how do u NOT understand that???honestly, i dont think it comes down to a jealous thing anymore, its merely a RESPECT thing.and i hate it when the script is flipped tho and guys make it seem like man she aint nobody...shes "just a friend"... or my favorite..OMG!. . .its like dont provoke it...all miserably single females want is attention.. and if they can get it from a "off the market" ni**a then they've won... and in the mean time im left feelin like... damn....any good girl understands that her man has friends that are girls... BUT she also understands that there's a line that shouldn't be crossed and when it is....then get ready to be questioned... or just nip it in the bud before the interrogations begin...but anyways.......

What?!?? She's Human??

Ooook. so the real world last nite... oh man oh man.....i have to say that i finally sat on the couch as i was watching thinking to myself , "man karma's a bi*tc*"...
Sarah...dude....get a freakin life...like seriously i've had it up to here. honestly to had no right to disrespect my dude nick.. Charles Barkeley?? is that the best can do? i do have to say, though, that it was nice to see a different side of sarah.. i mean she drinks???? No!!! she DRAAAANK! should we say slithered?? but anyway....what goes around comes around..
im glad that in this episode brittanie played it cool....see seems like someone i would wanna room with...(but i guess i have to stay tuned to next weeks episode...DRAMA!!!)....
OMG! brianna....girl can sang...i gotta give it to her...cuz she got it.. she might be sh**ing on some of these people already in the industry..(not gonna say any names...ashanti)...but the girl is extremely talented.. i mean i would download her musik. :-)
sooooo sad though....nick cries??? thats amazing that God sent him an angel like that branden kid...and then he just died.. like that... that part was mos def intense.. :-/
but further more... im really glad that real world season has kept me entertained..even without greg...im excited that the show is actually using its connections to help these kids do what they set out to do in the first place....mad props real world.. this season has made a "real world comeback" for me.....hope next ones even better......
im out...be back later....

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OK.....hellooooooo! OMG! was anyone else watching this man on the BET awards last nite?? i fell in love with him all over and i listened to his music in heavy rotation today! :-)

He'S old.given....but ughh..wouldn't just one more album be so grand? i would buy it.... and im sure some of his faithful listeners would as well...

i mean look at this ::pic:: im gettin this vibe like...maybe [ne-yo] really is bringing back this whole "GENTLEMAN" thing....

....and I love it. :-)

but wait though.... speakin' of NEYO.... him and chris brown are beefin now??? what is the world comin too.....?? its not enuf with the gangstaz feuding over whose money is stacked higher.. but we gotta have the nice ones goin at each other....

in neyo's rap diss, he started off by saying.."to whom it may concern.."... well we all know who the "whom" is....

ill argue, though, that the stuff neyo spit in his diss was true...i mean... come on... chris .. love u to death.. but neyo's been on since u were in freakin grade school.....

its just sad though.... but whatever..it'll be over sooner than the shaq "diss on kobe" was squashed.......

screw you...iM briLLAnt...anD COOL.

what kinda of girl do you think i am? you thought i was a believer?? you thought i would wanna blog about my ideals? well ok.. here's my first....

sooo today..just an ordinary day....nothing is EVER on television these days..but i think i was sucked into watching this show called "shear genius" on bravo. it was ironically interesting...yeah yeah.. one of those cheesy competition reality series..but it was cool...im not gonna lie.. it made me wanna pick up some scissors and do somethin crazy with my 'do. BUT...that dream died very quickly. :-)

yet and still.. im new to this blogging thing....but iM sure iLL learn the ropes very soon....

more to come....stay tuned.....

be back after house of payne/the real world....